Over the past few months, I've come to realize how many
changes have taken place in my life, and not necessarily overnight. Little
choices result in big changes, whether I noticed or not!
Life sometimes seems like such a big complicated occasion,
that I often feel overwhelmed. At times, I feel so excited about the events
going on in my life and then there are times when I just do not understand the
point of anything. From food, emotions, to relationships, nothing
makes sense. I space out from everything and everyone. I feel like my sense of
"self" is unnecessary.
Just vague ideas floating in and out of my head, while I
feel like an entity that is everything and nothing, both at once. Whether I
understand these concepts of human existence or not, time will pass. There are
times where I feel I've wasted so much time over confusion. I tend to dissect
all the elements that form an emotion to the point where I can conveniently
make my negative emotions vanish. And sometimes, I enjoy not feeling anything. Numbness
that spreads slowly, taking power away from anything I can't see.
Then I realize there's nothing more to life than a series of
small, simple moments. Most part of our 'destiny' revolves around
the little choices we make.. and there's no real need to get frightened by life's drama. As long as you listen to your heart and do what you feel is
right, every moment is a perfect moment. Taking time to understand yourself,
love yourself, and being content with yourself is so important. It gives you strength to cope with these changes.
Things to do more often:
1. Identify & solve problems. Put a finger on what it is
that's worrying you and determine steps to get rid of it.
2. Simplify your life. Take a break from technology. Read a
book. Go for a walk. Play the piano!
3. Exercise.
4. Accept all emotions, both positive and negative.
5. Spend time in nature. The kind of calmness it brings!
7. Exercise happiness. Practice being grateful. Appreciate
more often.
